26, Female – I've got a Marketing bachelors and I've worked in DM for 3+ years. Just recently switched companies, pay is great but the more I work these office jobs, the more I just want to pull my hair out.
The office politics makes me want to scream. Don't get me wrong, if course office jobs have their perks but I do think that certain personality types just go insane in that environment.
I've also ended up HATING marketing and I dread every day cause it just stresses me out. I cba with this selling bs. I'm so over the consumerisim bs, trying to sell a product that has another 5000 different versions under a different brand. It's so saturated. Every time I see an ad on FB, IG or Youtube, I just cringe. I'm tired of SM, I want to delete all my SM apps, but I need them and I need to be on them cause of my job. It's having an effect on mu mental health.
Futhermore, I am naturally a very active person, I have constant adrenaline, I have anxiety, I have depression – just sitting down for 40hrs a week and staring at a screen feels like absolute tourture at this point. I can physically feel my body dying cause of the sedentary lifestyle. I do try to go to the gym, but it's like the mental exhaustion from constant brain work also makes you physically more tired than if I were to have an active job. I just want to go home and take out my brain.
I'm so lost, idk what to do with myself. It's harder to find a manual labour job that pays decent enough. I'm also studying programming on the weekends but I'm falling behind cause I'm just braindead after the workweek.
Idk what manual skill I can learn that is sought after and will pay well, also as a female? And that won't require a ton of years to master. I want to finally be content with what I'm doing by 30…
Any advice? Thanks.