My mother is the kind of person who went to work with pneumonia years ago “because I thought I would just close my office doors and drink dayquil” and got yelled at/fell asleep from exhaustion at her desk.
My father is a Christian Scientist (not scientology) and they believe in very very little, disease is illusion type mentality
I want to quit my job but we all help support my brother who is on disability for schizophrenia (that I'm happy to say is pretty under control 🙂 esp with assistance)
Initially asked for part time and they just refuse to let me over and over
So at work the staff to resident ratio is disgusting bc there's no set legal minimum. I genuinely love the elderly and working with seniors. I did a 1 on 1 job for 2 years and it was so rewarding. But the pay was insulting, and I had been thinking about CNA classes..
I stayed at the last place until my favorite client went. At this new place I get so depressed that I don't have the time to help everyone, sometimes a dozen+ residents… our senior care system is so broken and has been for a long time.
The issue is I feel guilty whether or not I'm there when we can't help everyone regardless of my attendance or absence. And the pay is awesome because it's so hard to keep people.
They barely even care what we do at work as long as the ratio of staff to bodies is high enough. They want us to do illegal 2 person transfers alone, and dude I'm 5'2 and 92 pounds, I just can't!! Even if it was safe or legal.
This place gave me covid and didn't really sympathize when my sister passed away last month. I just want to quit and sleep and never go back.
TLDR: Just tell me it's ok to quit my job where I get punched or scratched by anxious dementia patients and emotionally abused by my boss to work more hours than I'm emotionally capable of