I am only 19 years old but there is nothing going on in my life besides work and I feel like I am missing out on it. There exist two things in my life, working and waiting to work again. There is nothing in between. How should it be possible to be happy while doing it?
I started working one year ago (for 6 months) as a maintenance worker, where I was laid off because they didn't need me anymore. Which is something I went to school for and hated. School in the last four years was pretty useless because I did not learn that much that I can even use.
I taught myself coding in my free time for hours. Which enabled me to work now as an underpaid frontend developer where I had to work one hour per day for free, for a few months, which really made me hate this job. I like programming but only when I work on my personal projects where I can integrate my ideas.
I feel pretty numb right now like a machine that is expected to do stuff for the next few years until I am too old to work.
How should I do it for at least 40 years if already feel that way? I am just kinda clueless about what to do.
Well, that was it with my dose of negativity.