I just need to vent.
I absolutely hate being a working mom. My husband and I both have to work to pay bills, pay off debts, attempt to squirrel away pennies into savings, etc. I know there are ways to work remote these days but I would still need to send my kids to daycare to be in a quiet environment required for those positions. I want to be home with my kids. I'm missing them daily and hate that I get a couple hours a day and weekends to spend with them. They're only little for so long and I'm missing it. My husband is looking into working more hours at his job that could allow me to stay home or at least cut back to working part time, but then he's gone 12+ hours a day and he'll miss out on quality time with the kids. I just hate it all. I used to joke that I wasn't built to work but now I feel like a little bit of me is dying each day when I walk into my office.
Please tell me I'm not alone in this. Surely there are other working parents out there that know this feeling. I hope.. Maybe I am just speaking into the dark… who knows.