I'm afraid, but I shouldn't be.
My company is a hilarious sinking ship. The ceiling is falling in right next to the server room. There are six (6!) drip buckets scattered around the hole. Three new employees will be joining my department because the best employee we have demanded a job title change. She'll be in her own office next month (good for her) but now I can see more “holes”
My department is kind of ok, but the people in purchasing and accounting make waaayy more money than me.
BUT they're even more miserable than us.
That's a bad sign.
A guy in purchasing retired, and then his replacement quit after three months (due to stress)
Just today a woman that has been with the company for 13 years resigned. She is the only person that knows how to use fancy million function office printer behind me…and she's not willing to teach anyone how to use it. She cried with her office friends, but I think she's leaving due to stress as well. She must be somewhat bitter. She isn't willing to train her replacement. She already has another job lined up.
The receptionist retired too. That woman was perfect at her job. She was the most competent receptionist I have ever meet. Her paperwork was pretty and alphabetical. Her customer service voice was unbreakable, but she left and no one replaced her.
We just…don't have a receptionist. I have refused to “cover the front” since day one because that's ridiculous. This is not a small company. Without a receptionist mountains of shipping paperwork just doesn't get done. Most of it was forced onto the accounting department, but they have accounting to worry about. So the reception desk is naturally in ruins.
We work with truck drivers, and the back is understaffed. I don't know much but two managers have quit, and the drivers are complaining about the same thing I am. Too much work and no raises. Just like me the drivers are being told to squeeze 10 hours of work into an eight hour days.
I've seen people skip breaks, and I refuse to ever do that.
The head of my department has been away for 9 months due to surgery. I think she should retire, because she's very frail, but that's none of my business. I thought my department would get better again after her return, but my workload keeps growing.
I've been doing Excel sheets and data entry for the “new ordering system” that was supposed to be implemented four years ago.
That's right.
You heard me.
Four years ago…and I've been entering data for 10ish months (I think? I don't know anymore???). The project was only supposed to last two months so I've put my foot down. The other members of my department now also have to enter data. Why? Well, I had a breakdown. My performance worsened and my customers complained about my “mean” attitude. I even got reprimanded, but my bosses damn well know why I'm overwhelmed. Finishing the data entry sheets takes MINIMUM three hours. Max five. There's only eight hours in the work day…you do the math.
I'm being babied now. The most experienced person in my department is now listening in on my phone calls like I'm in training, because of the complaint. Nobody wants to actually acknowledge the fact that doing two jobs for almost a year wore me out. Everybody FINALLY knows how to do the sheets BUT my superiors keep joking about how slow my coworkers are compared to me.
(I am the most efficient person in my department. All of them have admitted it, but I totally don't deserve a raise. I look at my phone when the phones are dead. That means I'm lazy.)
I want to scream.
Of COURSE my coworkers don't know how to do the sheets. It's not their job. Building up website history data and bug testing is NOT THEIR JOB OR MINE. When I got the project I had very little experience. My internship four years ago involved a lot of computer stuff, but now it's been a half decade. I'm no expert. Neither are the others. Making us do this work is stupid, and it's a massive waste of time. We're supposed to be paying attention to customers, not a new computer program that we don't understand.
It's buggy by the way.
Insanely buggy. I toggled the screen and somehow WRECKED the demo program. It just…stopped working and froze. Even though it's four years old.
ITS FOUR YEARS OLD AND ITS STILL A DEMO!
AAAAAHHHH!
I HAVE TO GET OUT OF HERE!
My family thinks I'm making the right choice. Boyfriend does too. My friends are supportive too, but I liked how stable this job was before covid. Now I can see that management was always bad. What kind of delusional clown expects SALES REPS to optimize a COMPUTER PROGRAM WORTH HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS.
It's a joke.
I hope I don't jump into another trash fire that blames bad management on covid. I'm afraid of leaving, but I shouldn't be, because I have no patience left.
I refuse to sacrifice my breaks. I shouldn't have to cover empty, important positions that should have been filled a year ago. The managers have to stop making me pretend to be a computer programmer. They need to stop asking me computer questions. It's driving me bonkers.
I'm tired of watching my very likeable coworkers cry at their desks.
Things MIGHT get better again if covid ends, but I don't care.
I shouldn't.
I don't even think a raise would fix the problem. The manager will not stop asking everyone (not just me) to do things that aren't their job. Things they don't know how to do. Important things that they will most definitely mess up BECAUSE ITS NOT THEIR JOB.
I hope I find something half decent soon.
I have alot of days off piled up (this job does have good benefits. I've been taking four day weeks because I am too burned out to do five days. Yes, they are willing to pay me and let me take mental health days, but they aren't willing to fix the problem.
There has to be something better out there.
Wish me luck I just finished my cover letter.
I think I'm going to use my employee insurance to whiten my teeth before I head to my first interview. Out of spite.