I love my job, but it woefully underpays me. I'd get another job but my entire industry is like this. Despite needing a Bachelors degree to be a video producer, jobs rarely pay above $40k in my area.
It's led to a lot of stress, a lack of money, a lack of energy and a lot of anxiety and depression. Everything is so fucking expensive these days that I'm basically losing a bit of money every month and because of this, I stress out so fucking hard over my finances.
I would love to take comfort in the two things I enjoy, making videos for YouTube and playing video games but I'm so tired and burnt out by the end of the day, that I'm just not in the mood to do either of those things when the chance arises. This economy and this industry is slowly killing me. My Fiancee also wants to have kids before she's 30 (which she is two years away from) and once that happens, I'll have even less time, less money and I feel like my life will just be work and family.
I'm not opposed to settling down with kids at all, I want a family. But “settling down” implies that I'm living my youth to the fullest now, But I clearly am not because work and finances just don't allow me to do so both physically and mentally.
I'm just so tired man. I feel like my life is just going to be swallowed up by everything around me. I feel like I'm running out of time because I'm forced to participate in this bullshit system that is stacked against me and I can never get ahead. I want something, ANYTHING to change to give me a shot at a happy, stable and fulfilling life.