And Yea… I smoke weed — On my leisurely time, it helps a lot with my anxiety. The reason this whole ordeal came about is because apparently I use the bathroom too much and they’ve been notified i’m possibly vaping in there which is absolutely FALSE. Ive been on a weight gain journey so i’ve been eating and drinking a lot as i’m severely underweight — So i tend to use the bathroom on average 3 times a day. I’ve never come into work high, I don’t smoke on the job, I’m excellent with my patients and I strive to go above and beyond to create the best environment for them. I’m a great worker… But i know if they drug test me it’s over.
I just feel so defeated, this is the longest job i’ve kept so it started to feel like a personal achievement— I feel like i’m about to lose it all over this damn test.
I don’t really know what i’m getting at or asking for, The petty side of me really wants to pass the drug test just to prove them “wrong” and then put in my 2wks notice. the other side of me just wants to pass my drug test and keep working, and the last side of me wants to just say fuck it and quit i don’t even care. I just feel hopeless. I want to cry i feel defeated and someone at my job is a damn hater worried about what i’m doing in the bathroom.
Anything you guys have to say is appreciated cause i really don’t know.