I made a post a while ago about giving notice for my poorly-run job as an outdoor ed /garden teacher. It was so stressful and poorly managed that it made me sick, and my new job is way better paid, has better benefits, and I'm being given more respect.
I also feel like someone's taken a melon baller to my chest. It's not just because i miss the kids, or I miss working outside. It feels like a part of “me” is gone cause I'm not working in outdoor ed any more. I haven't had this with any of my other childcare or office jobs, I can't explain it very well, and I feel so stupid even trying.
Is this another shitty side effect of capitalism? Is this just something wrong with my brain? I'm genuinely curious what the hell this is, and if anyone else has felt like this after quitting a “dream job” that actually kind of sucked.