So right after grad school I got a corporate internship at a nice company but quickly realized it wasn’t for me even thought the people were nice and I could do the job well enough. During this period I got really bad depression and have been pretty heavily medicated since. Fast forward one miserable year later, my bosses asked me to stay full time and sign a contract – my immediate thoughts were no but then I really researched the job market and realized that my one good chance was to stay at this company. I have started the position full time and I am not doing well at all. My doctors increased my meds but the depression and anxiety is sometimes unbearable. I catch myself lying all the time to my boss and just overall don’t like myself or who I have become because of this corporate lifestyle.
I just started the full time position and can’t quit I don’t know what do do anymore. I am only 25 years old- any advice?