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Why Am I Here?

I'm not sure if this belongs here – if it doesn't, I apologize. I work for a tiny internet and cable company. I started in August of 2020 after a wicked bout of unemployment. It's a decent gig. I work in a branch office and am the only person who works in the office. I do customer support/care (mostly billing questions) and I dispatch our technicians (mostly done by another team – I just help when they're busy). But lately, I just feel… pointless. I don't do much of anything during my day. I'm actually at work right now. I spend most of my day waiting for the phone to ring, which almost never happens, or to have someone walk into my office, which happens even less. (Side note: I was going to write a separate rant about that. The phone doesn't ring. I wear a headset all day and…


I'm not sure if this belongs here – if it doesn't, I apologize.

I work for a tiny internet and cable company. I started in August of 2020 after a wicked bout of unemployment.

It's a decent gig. I work in a branch office and am the only person who works in the office. I do customer support/care (mostly billing questions) and I dispatch our technicians (mostly done by another team – I just help when they're busy).

But lately, I just feel… pointless.

I don't do much of anything during my day. I'm actually at work right now. I spend most of my day waiting for the phone to ring, which almost never happens, or to have someone walk into my office, which happens even less.

(Side note: I was going to write a separate rant about that. The phone doesn't ring. I wear a headset all day and it makes this obnoxious, brief noise and answers for me. I have two seconds to react.)

Part of me realizes that I shouldn't complain. A blindfolded monkey could do my job. It requires zero effort on my part. It pays for my bills – I'm living paycheck to paycheck, but honestly, who isn't?

But the other, louder part of me just feels pointless. I seriously spend 90% of my day finding ways to kill time – like I'm doing right now.

Should I just suck it up and stay here? Should I put forth the effort to look for a better job? Is everything just spiraling into nothingness anyway?

I really just needed to rant for a second. Thanks.

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