I've been working for 4ish years now and I hate it with all my soul. I start off every job liking it then within a few months I start to despise it. I feel like any career I get into will result in misery until I retire.
My goal has always been to save as much money as possible and invest so I can retire early. The biggest issue is that my partner who I can't imagine life without has severe anxiety and may never be able to work a job. She has had one job but quit a few months in due to daily panic attacks that wouldn't go away.
I'm so afraid that if she can't keep a job then I'll have to choose between having children or retiring early and I don't know if I could survive another 40 years of jobs. The thought of being stuck doing this for 4 decades drives me into a panic I'm unable to overcome.
What is there to be done? Is it reasonable and normal to feel this way? Also we're in USA so there is no social support system. We are both seeking mental health support but it's not getting any better.