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Too exhausted to strive

A couple months ago I started my first full-time office job, still not even fully finished with college just yet so it felt like an achievement. I picked my task up pretty quick and the numbers showed I was performing well, which felt rewarding at first. But now that I know enough to get by I’m finding there’s no work to do, no projects to pick up… most of my day spent doing absolutely nothing but loafing around the office. So, my mind numbingly bored self started thinking about how the work could be made more efficient, how the process could be smoothed out, and how we could maybe save money down the line. I consulted my outside sources and was encouraged to give this idea a go. So, I did. I spoke to my supervisor. The content I ran by him ended in a referral to speak to someone…


A couple months ago I started my first full-time office job, still not even fully finished with college just yet so it felt like an achievement. I picked my task up pretty quick and the numbers showed I was performing well, which felt rewarding at first. But now that I know enough to get by I’m finding there’s no work to do, no projects to pick up… most of my day spent doing absolutely nothing but loafing around the office.

So, my mind numbingly bored self started thinking about how the work could be made more efficient, how the process could be smoothed out, and how we could maybe save money down the line. I consulted my outside sources and was encouraged to give this idea a go. So, I did. I spoke to my supervisor. The content I ran by him ended in a referral to speak to someone else (a meeting the supervisor had set up himself). After that meeting, things felt a little off but I carried on with my day, planning to pull the plug on my work based off what we spoke about. Well, towards the end of the day, word of this project apparently made its rounds and now I’m stuck with:

  • an angry supervisor; hates the direction this is taking and treats me like I’m basically nothing.
  • radio silence from management, those I was told to show the draft to (pretty embarrassed)
  • and mostly… still no work to do.

At this point it seems low risk high reward to keep going- I could in theory try to take this further… cut my losses and accept my current supervisor will be upset until I’m caught up enough to propose a compromise. But why bother? Feels like if I say or do anything I’m prone to worsening things or at best wasting my energy.

If anyone read this, first of all thank you! Second, is it normal to struggle so much? To basically feel exhausted and invisible throughout the day?

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