I have quite a few assets and investments, but I decided to take a job after being at home for 3 years and doing my own projects. My wife thought it would improve my mental health, get me energised and back into things in a larger way and whilst its WFH, feel I've totally lost my sense of purpose and mission.
I thought that picking up some extra cash flow that I can put to work on my own projects would be an additive process, and stop me “spending” my own capital. But I feel rather dispassionate about the role/team and mission. It is a large traditional business where I am working in digital, but there is alot of detail. Previously I feel I had a more stressful role in start-ups but I felt I was “doing something”. Now I'm stuck in a very process oriented huge business performing a more “functional” rather than “strategic” role.
Mentally I'm navigating the following issues:
a) Boredom. I feel I was doing this kind of work much earlier in my career and I feel I have backwards. I would not mind if I thought I was learning something. But I feel there is little growth here.
b) How to maximise my mental health. My projects and / are still quite solitary.
c) The job has taken much of my mental energy (not it a good way) and have reduced my motivation for many aspects of my life, including mental health – the last part is complicated.
d) Mental health. I am a bit OCD, so unstructured time or over-work can be an issue in keeping my stress levels down. I'm triggered by certain circumstances. OCD is related to contamination so I can be fussy about my physical space.
e) Not overworking. I was initially working less on the day job and felt some brief relaxation at the start and was fairly enthusiastic.
f) Educated background and sunk cost.
Most of my wealth comes from investments etc and some online ventures. These take up already a lot of mental energy, but don't quite provide the income as I set up to provide growth rather than income. I could switch things around.
Any suggestions? I don't want to just YOLO out of the role, but I'm having trouble finding a new plan or focus. I feel very split.