As stated in the title, I (29F) have stayed at home while the kids are little for the past 4 years while also going to school full-time for a lot of it. I graduated college in December and the time has come for me to start contributing financially. I just really don’t want to . The thought of having to go to an office every day, having a boss and coworkers, not hanging out with my youngest all day or being able to drop everything and pick up my older two from school if they need me makes me want to cry. I’ve literally thought about OnlyFans or finding a secret sugar daddy. I’ve looked all over for ways to work from home without having to take calls and risk my toddler being needy in the background. I’m not saying I don’t want to work, I just don’t want to change everything about my current life so quickly. My husband makes enough money that he’s been able to support us but the time has come that we need the ability to start saving and want to buy more than we’ve been able to these last few years. I’m just feeling so much pressure and sadness and don’t know what to do.
Edit: I’d like to clarify that I’m not thinking about infidelity in order to not work! I would have permission from my husband before starting an OF and the sugar daddy thing is not a real option-just an exaggerated way to show my desperation.
Also, I know that I’m extremely lucky and I make sure my husband knows how grateful I am as often as possible! ️