I'm at a point now in my life where Im just tired of the daily grind. Not just that but the competition. I don't go to family get togethers or really talk to them at all. For a few reasons but one of them is the competition. For as long as I can remember they always say shit about where I work. Ok yeah I work in a restaurant. It's on the lower end of social acceptance. And there in lies the problem I have with the way things are. Your constantly in a competition I feel I used to work my ass off to try to get somewhere but I'm actually going nowhere. And I don't care. Anymore. Im dropping out of the rat race well I did years ago but I'm just now saying it. I don't care with how good my cousin is doing or what new truck he just bought! I don't even know him anymore to be honest and we were close growing up. I'm tired of if you don't have a socially acceptable job it's really hard to go to social get togethers unless your of equal status. And that is a huge problem in this country. Among other things. There so ingraved in there beliefs of having kids and being upper class that I can't take it. So I stay away. Even though there not technically upperclass. Doesn't matter if I worked hard and been loyal at same job for 25 years. I feel I would be treated the same if I was on welfare. On government assistance. That's how they make me feel. Oh your still at that job. Isn't that place closing up? That was what she said to me last time she spoke to me. I said yeah but you been saying that for 15 years. So maybe one day she will be right. S.m.h. working hard does not pay off. That's what I've realized.