I'm a 24 year old with no real certifications and no education past high school, with no desire to really attain either. I've been doing manual labor ever since I graduated back in 2016, going from bagging groceries to making coffee to building doors to painting moss (don't ask), and I can safely say that I despise working. I quit the moss job back in November of last year after realizing how miserable it was making me, and my girlfriend (whom I had met at said job before she quit herself) supported me when I said I didn't really want to reenter the work force right away so I could find out what my passion is.
Its March now, and what I want to do won't make me money. I'm in a situation where I need to start making money, but I'm terrified of actually working again. I'm “not qualified” to work an office job, and I despise the idea of going back to being a cashier or doing anything physical (I have a terrible back and I'm not exactly made of muscle either). I've considered trade school, but everyone I've met who works as an electrician or a welder or any kind of job like that tells me that they work upwards of 80 hours a week just to pay the bills, and I can tell it destroys their bodies.
Truth is, I've always loved writing, but I'm afraid of putting any eggs in that basket because it isn't exactly a money maker. I want to tell stories either through books or by making video games, but I know very little about coding and every time I try to learn, my head spins. I fear that time is running out for me to get my shit together, and that the walls are closing in on me and that I need to get back into the work force ASAP, but I'm terrified of that sense of dread I always got from waking up and having to go to work every morning. Any advice or personal stories about what you guys do to pay the bills would be appreciated. Thank you.
Tl;dr: Been unemployed for 5 months after last job sucked the life out of me and am terrified of getting a traditional job. Advice welcome.