Recently I had a breakdown that sent me to the hospital and jail. It was my second one, the first one was one year before when my personal life, work life turned together to be a psychotic event. I have grown with the culture of excelling at work or pretending to be doing it. I was just not aware that Americans took that pretension to a corporate level. It is just incredible how consulting work is full of bullshit. Really consultants, you are a species that some times I think that really needs to change. Thanks to that people that oversell solutions, I feel I lost the way of thinking and solving problems, selling bullshit is what for me seemed to matter, but always be doing something.
A lot of hard things were happening around me and the only thing I could think of was work. Until finally I was free. I was called to the office, have a call explaining to me how even though I am talented they were not able to staff me any more for lack of trust. I understand, you tried to juice me out the most and once there were no more numbers positive to my name, I needed to be gone. Maybe they did think of my wellbeing at the end, but surely that was not the main factor, eve thought they had their passion to develop people as a slogan. You can accommodate any story to your acts, but what matters are the things that move the key. I was done, but thanks to the law, I had rights.
Thanks Mexico for your state and the opportunity to enjoy of your rights. Also your law.
With that money I can burn one year and a half of doing absolutely nothing. Living my life. And that has been fucking amazing. Suddenly I wanted to get up early again, do things, stay awake. I am constantly looking for a job, doing tests and interviews, studying for them, but I just wanted to share that I love my life without deliverables for any boss. I love not having a boss.
I hope to find a way of stay in this state of mind constantly and as far as it goes, I will keep looking and expect for a job. I still need to find a new way of thinking that allows me to live and pursue freedom.
All the best, and for some reason I just put this words together for you. I assure you ChatGPT did not wrote this words but it may have influenced the contents of this message.