I am an introvert who hates the fakeness of corporate culture. I also have BPD so being around fake people all day is draining and gives me anxiety.
I’m smart and worked really hard when I was WFH. Lots of late nights and I felt very motivated because nobody was hovering over my shoulder & I didn’t have to worry about making small talk with colleagues at the office. This led to me getting promoted once we got back to the office.
First, my office said we only needed to come in two days per week. Fine, that’s doable.
Then a few weeks later they raised to to three days per week.
Then a few months later four days per week.
Now that I have to spend the majority of my week in a depressing office environment, my work product has declined. I am totally drained when I get back home and physically don’t have the energy to work late like I used to.
It doesn’t help that I’m also being ostracized in the office as well. My coworkers make plans with each other right in front of me and leave me out. This normally wouldn’t bother me (I don’t like being friends with pretentious pickme women) but I feel like I’m not getting certain opportunities at work because I’m not friends with them. I feel like I’m being punished for not doing a task that isnt even in my job description.
My depression is so obvious that it’s written all over my face and I feel like people are intimidated by me.
Idk what to do??