I was fired upon returning from short-term disability leave to deal with a severe depressive episode that was seriously impacting my ability to work effectively. It was an office job at a publishing house, and while it didn't pay great, it at least kept me afloat and insured. Not anymore though. In one fell swoop, they took away my income, my insurance, my self esteem, and basically all the mental stability that I worked so hard to build up while I was on (company approved) leave.
Because God has decided to make me his personal enemy, this all happened at the same time we were being forced to move due to a rent spike in our building. My partner's and my savings have been all but wiped due to the move, and I can't stop feeling like all of this financial strain is completely my fault.
I keep having flashbacks to the moment I was called into that Teams meeting and told that I was being 'terminated.' I can't afford therapy anymore because I'm uninsured. I feel like I've been nothing but a burden to my partner. My self-confidence has been crippled, and I get shaky and anxious every time I even try to open LinkedIn. My chances at finding another job with the benefits I had before are slim at best, anyways, since all I have is an art degree.
Every day I feel worthless, hopeless, and like a complete and utter failure. I'm a total shell of who I used to be, and I'm seriously considering ending things so that I can 1) end this pain and 2) make my former employers see just how badly they ruined me.
Sorry if this is too unhinged to post here. I just needed to put my thoughts out somewhere in case the worst happens.