This is just a rant. As above. I'm 42, in the UK. working since I was 16. Full time from 17. Started as a factory worker, went into building computers, then insurance broker and now hgv fleet admin. Had side jobs during the years.
Not sure if it's whats happened in my life lately, (Nervious breakdown 8 years ago, last year…heart attack, mum died, wife divorced me and moved someone in straight away, started from scratch again looking after my kids. Cant get a date to save my life, my grandad died last week and was like a father to me)
Anyway, all that and I've been major stressed with work. I've been trying to progress and get a promotion. I've done 2 interviews, others around me that I know dont know as much or dont do as good a job as me, have been promoted. (Friends of management)
I've been working my guts off for 2 years, I got told off by a manager as I put in an email to a customer…and I quote. “Sorry for the delay, I'm doing this on my own”
That reply was “unacceptable, won't be tolerated add managment bullshit here etc.
I've been a manager before, so I know how it works, but I was never like most I've known.
Any way, got told off for that email and I lost my temper. Shouted in the office telling them to F off.
As far as I know I'm not getting disciplined etc, which I'm grateful for as I know that kind of behaviour shouldn't be done. But I've just lost all the will to work. This happened yesterday and today im only doing what I'm contracted to do, nothing more. Unlike the last 2 years where I have been doing as much as possible. Again, maybe it's just because of what's happened, but I really can't be bothered anymore. Sick of working flat out all the time for enough money just to survive. Seeing managers running around in Tesla's in big houses, while I live in a small place with my 2 kids, running in a heap of junk car. Just bearly getting by.
Done with life in general Tbh.
And yes, I'm speaking to a therapist as I have depression/anxiety. But still can't see the point in all this bullshit.
Anyway, from what I've learnt, the harder you work, the more work you're given and the more you suffer. Hope you're all having a better time than I am.