There are only 3 of us in the studio so we are pretty close.
Though my boss recently had just been unbearable for many reasons but that’s whole other stories.
My mental health isn’t great, I got better before lockdown but now I’m just right back where I started. Fat and anxious. Great. However I’m good at hiding my feelings and my anxiety at work. Nobody wants a miserable tattooist, do they. Anyway I’m happier when I tattoo, it’s a great outlet for my stress and anxiety.
Sometimes if I do open up to my boss if I’m having a bad day she just kinda tells me not to be daft or to go for a walk. Brushes me off. Or she messages my mother. So I don’t bother. She’s done it again today, I felt pretty sad this morning, nothing I can’t handle on my own, I mostly felt sad because I’m not happy at work due to her recent behaviour and some out of work factors. After trying to talk to me again and me only opening up a tiny bit she’s took what I’ve said and I sent a messaged my mum on Facebook.
I’m done talking to her. I’m so scared to go to work tomorrow incase she wants to talk to me. I’m not good at talking about my feelings, I’m just gonna cry and then feel embarrassed for the rest of the day. None of my mental health actually effects my work.
I know my boss means well I’m just sick of going to work as an almost 30 year old and being made to feel like a pathetic little girl. It’s almost time to leave, I think. I’m so scared.