I am not sure how I'm gonna put this all together so please hear me out
Idk how to feel about my manager, he doesn't yell at me for making mistakes, he usually just talks to me casualy, he can be nice to me, but annoying. but he can make me uncomfortable in other ways as well, I feel as if I can't take a day off after I got promoted, because he complains, because we don't have enough people so he'd have to take my shift, but he never takes days off either so why should I complain? In February I requested a day off a week after valentines (because we were beyond busy and I needed a break) and he gave me crap for it because it was his weekend to watch his kids, now I have to also not take certain days off just so he can be with his kids? Its not like I request every other weekend off.
He also says how he wants to have sex with his boss and that he misses his wife and stuff like a lot. I get he hasn't recovered from is cheating ex wife but biss…. and we wrestle each other sometimes as well, he usually initiates it, he does it with everyone but mainly me because I stand my ground. But one time he jumped on me and stayed on my side (he is like 190lbs while I'm 225) so I can handle his weight mostly but my leg was slipping to the side and it for real felt like the pressure was gonna break my leg or do some damage and i was making in pain noises and its partly my fault for not yelling at him to get off but I have some people pleasing tendencies and whenever I think about it I tear up because I didn't stand up for myself. After he got off obviously i looked in pain and I didn't want him feeling bad but I was like “oww” and I don't remember him saying anything. But later that week I told him it felt like he was going to break my leg and he said that wouldn't of happened.
He also still wants to jump on me but now I'm constantly scared and don't want him too. He also ALWAYS yells behind me to scare me constantly. He gets a thrill of just shouting in my ear, and even if I know he's there is still scares me because he's so fucking loud!
We seem to be friend, partners, co managers. But idk if I want either anymore. Idk if ill find a better job, especially for better pay because I don't get paid shit for being a supervisor at where I work. And I know for a fact he's going to give me shit if I quit.(he is also my neighbor) He can be super nice or a super asshole and it goes through cycles sometimes. And honestly in a way I feel like I might do more work then him. I have reasons for this but I'm not quite sure.