I (25F) am having trouble staying dedicated to my new job. Previously I was employed for a year plus, loved the location etc, but decided to leave because I realise I was very underpaid for the role (Lead Teacher, $2000/month lol) I took on. I also wanted to progress into a new environment. Thankfully there was no bad blood there and everything ended well.
Fast forward to now, 4 months later, I’ve already signed 2 different contracts the past month and less than a week later, I’ve lost motivation. I got terminated on the first contract for no-shows, didn’t care. Right now as we speak, on my current job, I was already given a warning last week if I don’t show up again, I’d be terminated. Well I just sent my boss the message that I’m not feeling well and I’m very prepared for another termination.
Any idea what’s wrong with me? For context, I’m a preschool teacher. I have to get up at 6AM everyday just to deal with crying kids. I hate it. I just hate it. But I need to know why I’m losing motivation. I’d like to think I’m also a very picky person. Once I find a place I really REALLY love, I’d have no problem staying committed. But I’ve just fucked up 2 jobs just because I wasn’t feeling it. I don’t feel bad though, mentally I feel great. but UGH help
I’m constantly telling myself, “why should i force myself to stay in a place where my mind & heart isn’t with?” literally, if i’m gonna work i’m gonna at least make sure it’s somewhere i love.