So I've been on a few interviews recently and I've reached somewhat of a mental snapping point where if I get some comment along the line of the title (none have actually ever said this but basically implied it) – I might just lash out at the recruiter on the next one.
But I am dead tired. I'm a first generation immigrant of color who started in a dingy 1 bedroom apt with rats & cockroaches, I live with my parents who hate me (for being a “failure” cause I can't get a job after graduating right away- classic helicopter/ tiger parents), I've failed numerous times in my studies over the pandemic and YET I've still somehow persevered through all of it and I am now sitting before you:
- genuinely smiling
- Dress cleanly and be presentable
- Able to answer all your questions with what I feel are good answers.
- Consistent and diligent (not like they know that but I do lol)
- I've held two jobs before this and would love to answer questions about those (Not like you ask)
- I work well on teams once I'm in , crack jokes, etc.
But instead you're gonna focus on somewhat of a sales aptitude , an upbeat nature, etc that I am ABSOLUTELY TIRED of faking that I have. On the ones that I fake it on – I don't get enthusiasm concerns but the odd interview that I just actually be my normal self (which is still a decently sociable person) – boom! It's an issue!
Who are you looking for ?? Kimmy Schmidt??
I'm sorry that I don't come from a well adjusted suburban background where I went to my parents cabin along lake tahoe (or something like that) every summer and paid for my college. I'm sorry that I commute by bus (in a car city) cause I can't afford it. I'm sorry that I have the balls to be my natural self whose an emphatic listener (that can still answer anyone's questions) than an in your face happy person on drugs.
I'm TIRED of faking it. Yet, cause I need the money guess what I'm gonna be? – all smiles!
(Thanks for listening to my little rant)