In the last month my lowest paying shift was $119($17/hr) and highest was $576($64/hr).
I have ADHD and CPTSD. It is very difficult for me to work full time and manage my mental health. I burn out, panic, and shut down. Working part time at something with minimal stress is the most sustainable option for me. I work part time (13-28hr/wk) and I survive.
My whole life people have talked about my POTENTIAL, all these great things I could be, could have been. It hurts when people see my intelligence and creativity, expect more with no regard for my happiness or well being, and then are disappointed and cold when I can't perform.
I'm a loser, I'm wasting my potential, and I'm okay with that if it means I can sustain a relatively happy and low stress life.
I'm in therapy, I'll be okay.
Just felt like screaming into the wind.