This just happened as of today,
Some background information: I started a new job in October 2021 through a recruiting company. Through them I got a good office job that I really enjoyed. I liked my boss, my job and my colleagues . I took pride in the work I did and the effort I put in, trying to learn as much as I could and help the new people that were hired after me.
In December I was sick a lot due to a really horrible cough and breathing problems. Turns out I have asthma and got that diagnosed the same month.
I was gone from work so much that I ended up getting a first day certificate where I had to see a doctor if I got sick again. I wasn't sick again and did well at work. My boss expressed that he was happy with me and the work I do. I also always accept to work late whenever that comes up (2-3 times a month ish)
In march however my sister was raped. Due to this I didn't really have the mentality to be at work. I skipped a few days which was okey for both the recruitment company and the people I worked for During this time I had a talk with my boss about family and let him know that my Father died in a boat accident 2011. It's still tough on me specially around these days.
So, fast forward to last week. I wasn't feeling well so i took my work laptop and worked from home instead. This was OK as I wasn't feeling well but this week my girlfriend wasn't feeling well so i stayed home a few days more just to be safe. Yesterday my boss lets me know he wants me to come back to work and I let him know i will. This morning however my mental health got the best of me. My father's death date had just passed and this weekend I'm seeing my sister for the first time since she was raped. I can't get it out of my head, I feel ill, sick to my stomach and let my boss know that I won't be coming in, I'm just not there mentally at the moment.
He responded by this by letting me know this isn't working out for him and that if I can't be at work I need to call in sick. I let him know that i really do want to work but if it's not working then yeah, fine, I'll call in sick.
I called my recruiting company and they let me know they're unhappy with me. The company i work for has made a complaint and that it's serious. I need to come in TODAY for an emergency meeting as they're not happy and that this is serious.
So here i am. 2 hours before the meeting. Anxiety running through my body, my heart in my throat and completely Fucking blindsided by this and the fact I may lose my job. I thought I did good? I thought they were happy with me and that I had proved I was a good worked and showed great interest. I just got more responsibility last week..?
And even if i don't lose my job it's just… so embarrassing.. do I even want to be there if they're not happy with me…
I don't know, I'm lost and i just wanted to write it all down. maybe get someone else's opinion and just.. I don't know