I’m 33 years old I’m from New York, and I work a job in security. I also work as a bouncer and personal guard but since Covid it slowed down, I will start again soon because I made more money as a personal guard/bouncer. I feel like things are sort of on the Up and up but I genuinely just want to find a way out. I work between 60-100 hours a week depending on how I feel. Like I make the money to do all the things I want to do when I need time off I get it if I ask, I plan my social time carefully and my job doesn’t argue with me when I ask for time off and I am so lucky. I’ve set goals to create new streams of income and I am slowly but surely succeeding in doing that. But I barely see my friends, I have so many hobbies and aspirations that I’m not able to pursue. I’m in a relationship I get married July, I was able to pay for a big wedding, I got legally married April 12th literally a week ago. I love my wife and she loves me too but I barely see her but I get to take her out on nice dates and buy her the things she wants. She make sure my clothes are clean and that there is always a meal waiting on me when I get home or a meal coming to me if I’m @ work hungry but the camaraderie we have for each other as two people who love each other is what’s so important to me. I don’t have any kids but I have a lot of nieces and nephews but I can never really spend time with them. Same with family I barely see my family I am just on this constant rat race. But when I see people not in my situation I feel it’s even worse than my own and i am so sympathetic. I’m lucky enough to be able to pay for my rent, phone bill, and a weeks worth a groceries technically my biggest expenses in one week and save. I put maybe 200$ aside a week for over head expenses and my wife usually takes care of overhead expenses. The only reason my rent is so low is cause my wife’s mom owns the house we rent. Otherwise I always rented rooms to keep my cost of living low. To pay my big monthly expenses within a week I get to save around 3 grand or more a month. I’m not suppose too but I sleep on the night shift @ work and when I get home in the morning so I’m not missing any rest and me and my coworkers look out for each other trying to get these bloodsuckers for whatever we can but to know my coworkers and most people @ other jobs go home with 500$ or less a week it breaks my heart, and to know I’m not even getting a quarter of what I deserve it hurts that it has to be this way. Everyone looks at me like a machine. But shit man anything can happen to me pushing myself the way I am pushing myself and I can hurt myself with who knows what a stroke, I can slip and break my leg or anything and I’m assed out. The thought scares me sometimes it keeps me up @ night. I use most my money to buy dividend stocks, I stopped since planning the wedding but I will start again soon. me and my brother are putting our money together to restore our family house to start an AIRBNB business in Jamaica (where my family is from). I’m planning diligently for a way out of this by the time I am or before I turn 40. If I choose to have fun I have a lot of fun and I am so thankful to be in such a favorable position, even though I’m scared as shit for myself. If my nieces or nephews need something I can get it for them and the thought of that makes me happy. If my mom needs help with her mortgage I can help her and the thought of being able to do that makes me so happy. It keeps me going. Just having to go on the way I’ve been going on scares me. My wedding in July is gonna be the first time my family has all been together if not since I was a baby maybe never for the first time we will all be in the same room together. My father use to do the same he came to America on an agricultural visa and he worked himself to death he died of stomach cancer when I was only 19 and I don’t want to put my family though the same. I just wanted to share my story with you and spread my love and respect to all working class poor disenfranchised people because it shouldn’t be like this it’s inhumane.