Hi, Im just gonna say sorry for mistakes but eng is not my first language.
So im 22y old, recently i got new job. They pay fine I guess (19.70 is minimum, im making 23). Im working here since 3 months with no previous experience. My boss is a guy (45y) and he Is really cool, I like him but he works every other day so I have to be alone with 2 women (31 and 30), they work here since 5 and 8 years. Usualy they are fine but they are such a toxic people, everyday I have to think if they are in “mood” or not. What if they are not? Well, they will attack me for literally everything. They say things like “If u dont know something then ask, we will help u :))” just so when I ask (and boss is not there) they are like “You work here ALREADY 3 months, you should know that”.
There was one situation when they told me to something in locked room but we had no key so I left it and decided to do it next day, after I did that I got attacked by them, they said “who told u to do that???” So I told her “You told me yesterday but we had no key so I thought im gonna do it today” which she respended “YOU SHOULD ASK”. But at this point im even scared to talk so they wont just jump on me. Just last friday I got jumped by both of them for not knowing last name of random guy working here cus I had to call him but there were 3 guys with his name on telephone list, or for not knowing what is this type of document (one of them was apsent day before and she was talking on the phone with the other one, she said “were u at work yesterday?! You should know” like ye im gonna know what u talked on the phone lol)
They once told me “Its this kind of job that you will have to work 2 years to stop asking as what to do” and now I hear daily “You should already know what to do”. Like how am I supposed to do? We work in hard HR (taxes, insurance, payments etc for +50 companies). They are draining my mental health so much, last friday I had to take half day off (which for I got attacked too) cus I was almost about to cry since there were “not in mood” (obv this mood was just to me, they were nice to everyone else lol).
Everyday that I have to go there I wanna literally end my life but I cant quit, I have no family, debt that I have to pay, I live with my friend family in different small city, he drives us both to work since localisation is so perfect for me, when he drives to his work we drive past my workplace so I dont have to use train (train alone to this city is 60min)
I really have no idea how to deal with it anymore, I just need one year of experience to find same work in different place since noone will care about 3 months in my CV and I just cant start everything over, I cant talk with my boss cus they know each other for 8 years, he likes my but If they tell him somethinh we all know who he gonna believe and I cant talk with HR cus Im HR lol, Its my second job and once again I have people like this, when I think about working another 40 years I just wanna die, I dont know if i can handle it