I’ve (23f) been working a salary position in a school district’s tech department for about 9mos now and it’s taken me this long to realize how miserable I am. I’m thinking of just packing up my office stuff and leaving a letter behind without having to talk to anyone. Would this cause trouble with my offboarding, receiving my last check, insurance related things, etc.?
The rest of this is mostly just a scrambled rant I need to get off my chest if you care to learn more about my position.
It started out fine, especially when I was brought onto the team with the idea that there would be opportunity to work from home. Some covid restrictions start lifting and all of a sudden, HR and the superintendent want to scrap the idea. They’ve delayed the process in approving wfh requests because they need to come up with “how employees wfh would benefit the district.” I know there’s probably a lot going on behind the scenes of that, but they got so many employees hyped up for it just to be shot down so fast.
I’m a technical writer, so almost all of my work could be done at home. My office is in a shared space in a repurposed school building. It’s not an inspiring space to work in. I’m also the youngest on my team. Everyone else in the office keeps talking about how they’re ready to retire after working there for 20+ years. They’re all around 50+, which isn’t a problem to me, but it’s been really hard to have conversations with them without bringing up my age. It’s just exhausting to hear about in every conversation. Is that an insecurity thing on their part??? 40 hours a week, I’m sitting alone in my office and finishing all of my tasks within 4 hours. My boss is pretty strict that we are there sitting in our chairs for the full 8 hour day.
I’ve received a lot of praise for my work since being here, but it hasn’t been enough to want to stick around much longer. The work I produce here has been relatively easy, so I’m confident to apply these skills somewhere else thank goodness. One of the most difficult things about my job was having to collaborate with different people and teams. My role is still kind of new in the department, so I’d have to explain why I was requesting collaboration and small actions outside of my team. I know people are busy, but what was the point of you accepting my calendar invite if you didn’t want to talk to me? Did you not read the agenda???
I’m not worried about leaving my team behind. There was only one other tech writer, and she had to train me so she should know how to hold down the fort. Lately she’s been dumping a lot of work on me. I hope she’s ready to take it back. I think she’s ready to give in too. She’s one of the folks that keeps talking about retirement, and mentioned it’s happening for her in about 6 more years. I wish that were me.
Anyway, I tried and I just want to leave without saying a word. Is this going to cause any trouble for me, especially in regard to receiving my last check? Also I know this place is simply just not where I want to be, but it doesn’t feel like a good enough reason to leave. How do I stop feeling guilty about this??