I felt this way since my teenage years. I remember in 8th grade thinking 'Idk wtf am I gonna do when I grow up' and feeling the sadness even then. 29 now, still know fuck all. I literally cannot imagine waking up each and every god damn day and going to work. Always felt like something HAS to come along that will be good for me and this feeling would stop, but it doesn't. I can't even take control of my own fate, because I don't have a dream fuckin' job and a goal to pursue. Idk the fuck to do. And the thing is, I was unemployed for a long time and that wasn't good either. Maybe cuz of social programming of glorifying work but nevertheless. So I'm in this limbo of sadness and anger… Had an ok job now for 5 months in a sport store, worked with a good team, paid like shit but I felt good working with my team but not surprisingly, 6 people quit for better paid jobs in a span of 2 weeks and now I feel like shit again. And nobody would quit with just a little raise, but profit over people. Idk what to do anymore, just getting shit off my chest… Fuck this society.