I realized in therapy that therapy itself implies I have value. Then I realized how disgusting work was. I stopped giving a shit. It was wild seeing the dumbfounded looks I would get when I would say “No.”
I live in the south. One day it snowed and when I woke up I saw the street was all white and went back to bed. I went to work the next day and my manager lost his shit. “You think you can just not come in!?” – “Yup.” Then I just walked away and did my work. I realized I might have taken it too far. Later his four business partners each independently approached and told me I did the right thing by staying home. That felt so validating and it emboldened me.