Past few years have been pretty bad for me. During covid I had 2 family members pass away due to covid accelerating their preexisting conditions, and 2 other family members have/are currently dying from other related complications. At the same time the first family member died due to covid me and my girlfriend got it due to an inconsiderate roommate which caused me to miss multiple college calculus tests which they refused to let me makeup all the while I could not even attend that family member's funeral because I was sick and my family could not afford to bring me to there from my college town. I changed my major to something I thought I would enjoy more and that would be easier but I lost another family member to covid around the same time and as a result lost almost $100k in scholarships. I've had cars as a hobby and started a side business to try and make money out of it and do something that doesn't feel like work to me which is going good but not yet enough to pay the bills so I am apprenticing at a shop but they will only let me work so many hours at only $13/hr and I just lost my other better paying job due to my disability even though I provided them documentation of it. I was working 14-15 hour days all for only $2500-$3000/month and I just feel so wronged and ready to leave the united states for a better life elsewhere. Spent the last 2-3 years working to get to a better point and just feels like I am back to square one again.