A little over a month ago I left my bank job due to an overwhelming amount of responsibilities with little support. I worked with two people who were very toxic, they constantly belittled me, – they took advantage of my agreeable nature and constantly floated me to other understaffed departments while still expecting me to keep up with my workload back in my main department.
After a build up of dealing with this bs combined with unrelated issues at home, I had a mental breakdown and took a leave of absence. During that time, I decided that for the sake of my personal health I would not return. I was fortunate to find a new opportunity of employment around the same time.
My issue is that I cannot seem to move on from the trauma inflicted. At my new job, I get extremely anxious around my new co workers because I am afraid that I would be subjected to the same treatment. I want to literally just fulfill my responsibilities and go home. I don’t care to chit chat or be buddies. This makes me come off as abrasive and distant, which I am sure doesn’t present a good look as the new guy.
I feel so resentful… I cannot seem to let go and I often find myself just sinking into a state of depression whenever I have any kind of triggering memory. I understand it’s just been a month and time will heal things… but I need to get past this 90 probationary period at my job in order to remain gainfully employed. I don’t know what to do.