So I used to work for Walmart ogp and while the job was in thought simple and understandable.
The pure amount of toxicity and stress made it difficult for me to control my mental illnesses.
I've even been bullied my people that I thought were being friendly and the bullying was when they would treat me away that made me feel bullied and like they're acting like my boss and they're on the same level. I did try to talk to management about it and at one point when multiple ones did it and it was really busy and I was all by myself the manager handled that moment in time. But for me the damage was already done and ever since then I was looking over my shoulder waiting for the next attack cuz that's how my anxiety works. Also this was a job that due to stress has caused me to be absolutely lose all kinds of confidence in myself about being able to handle a job anymore. I know anyone and everyone's standard advice is find another job and you know how unhelpful that advice is pretty freaking on helpful and it's unhelpful because for me that problem is everywhere the job to change the people could change and I've tried figuring it's me I've done everything I could to fix that problem and I'm starting to think it's not me I think it's the environments. I'm desperate to be able to work but I don't want to be treated in this way anymore I can't find a way to open a door for a better job I've been looking for years and praying for years I need to get a promotion or that unrealistic job dream happens. My mental illness is so bad that I don't believe a healthy work environment exists anymore. 100% believe all jobs are like this and all jobs are about to break me in the most horrifying ways imaginable