I'm on disability because I have a chronic illness, but I still need to work part time to make ends meet. My illness causes inflammation, pain, fatigue, and swelling.
I just got a new job two weeks ago and I was loving it.
It was chill and close to where I live. Which is good because I cant drive.
Second week in, I had to take a day off because I was going through a medication adjustment. Manager said it was fine and understandable. No worries.
Third week in, on my two days off, my symptoms got very bad in my toes/joints. They got so swollen and hot and itchy. I had to go to urgent Care and get some blood tests. My shift was the next day. I was planning on going and tough it out. Even on a seven hour shift on my feet all day.
The manager found out about my feet through another employee because I asked her the night before if she had a pair of slippers I could wear at work behind the counter. Because my toes are too swollen for shoes. She was very helpful and kind and brought them in before my shift.
Then I get a text from my manager asking if I wanted to take the day off. I originally thought I shouldn't because I could risk losing my job. But my toes have gotten so bad they can't bend and look like sausages. I asked the employee who lent her slippers if its safe to take the day off. She said of course, if he offered, then do it. So I said yes and thanked him for understanding. Then I get a call from him an hour saying “you should take time for yourself, I'm going to let you go”
Time time for myself? My chronic illness isn't going away. Taking time off won't change anything.
I feel defeated. It's so hard keeping a job when you're “disabled”. How in the hell do I find a job that's understanding of these conditions?
Its not my fault my body hates me. I still need to work or I can't pay rent.
Anyone else gone through something similar? Any advice? I feel like there's no point anymore.