I overslept for the first time. I was fired from my last job for being late too many times, so I'm trying to be on time for this job. I haven't been late yet in 4 months until today. I've never overslept before for a job, so I didn't know what to do. So I dilly-dallied around for a while panicking. Because to be honest I didn't want to go to work. My stepdad said I should go in so I called and said I would be in. Then in the parking lot I had another panic attack and couldn't get out. Eventually I forced myself out and went to work. I am a very suicidal person, it doesn't take much for me to want to kill myself. And I've gotten pretty close twice now. Today was one of those 2. Okay rant over. Sorry. I just had to vent.