I hope I can post a little vent/rant here. If not, sorry, just remove it.
I had a job at a clothing store, which I loved. When I was younger I dreamed of owning my own second hand store and this experience showed me that maybe I could. However the management was shit, they were cruel to the workers, expected us to not even talk to each other. We had no chairs to sit on, so even behind the cash register we were supposed to stand. At all times. Overall, it was burning me out and I decided to look for a different job.
And damn I did. Work from home, somewhat in my field and something I'd enjoy. I thought I finally found a job that I could keep for a few years and save up. Two weeks later I was let go, because the company lost a lot of customers due to the Russia – Ukraine situation.
I was devastated. Not only because I gave up my previous job for this one, but also because I currently sort of live with in-laws due to our living situation. And I hate to be viewed by them as unemployed. I just feel like a failure, to be honest.
It's gonna be 2 months and I was unable to find something that would even be worth it, to be honest. The pay is so low and with commute and food it's not even worth my time. I only want to work to save up, but how do I save up if there's nothing left at the end of the month?!
I'm still working, just for myself. Trying to start a creative business. I've earned some money, not a lot but I'm still at the begining.
But I feel guilty, living with in-laws, cause they are the type of people who are all for the workforce. The older generation who wants to be proud of you for working yourself to the bone.
My mother-in-law asked me if I found anything today, which is the reason for this vent. I said no. My partner works at a seasonal job right now. And MIL said we should find a stable job. I was holding back laughter and screams.
I thought the remote job at the well respected global company would be stable. What the fuck? You never know what can happen, you can be let go anytime. Employers don't care anymore. She said to start low in a company and work my way up. You can tell this woman has had the same job at the same company for the past 30 years. Completely out of touch.
Me and my partner have the same views. We bought a tiny house that we're renovating and we want to work for ourselves, grow our own food. Be as independent as we can. But I'm tired.
I get so emotional when I read the posts in this sub. I just want to escape this society. I'll do anything to not have to work for some stupid rich fuck who only cares about more money. I've been praying for a revolution for years.
Also few days before I was let go I watched the Jim Carrie speech where he said that you can fail even in something you don't want to do. So why not at least try to do what you actually want to do.