I'm gonna book a plane to Europe. Im quitting my job soon. I will enjoy my life without worries for the first time and once I run out of money i will kill myself. I only have 12k so ill last probably a month. Europe is expensive. I have enough money left to pay off my debt and donate some money to my toxic mom. My life is in shambles. Life is awful, meds suck, i hate routines, there's nothing to fight for, we age, we lose and then we die. Life is a curse and all the good things are expensive, you know why? Because of the amount of miserable people like me wanting to have those things. Basic economics. Everything hurts, it truly hurts. i thought I was going to be somebody someday, i had goals and aspirations but im so insecure im so weak im so afraid to live and Im a huge burden to everyone around me even myself the shame and regret is huge and I cant tolerate more of that no more. Maybe I will jump off a tall building or something else or just buy a knife and stab myself multiple time idk. Im terrible and i find no reason to live.