While this really is not comparable to what others suffer in their work, this is becoming a large issue for me in my personal life and mental health, and I can't handle this without speaking somewhere.
As a little context, I'm a nearly 24 years old male and I've never had a single tangible experience with a woman. Only recently I had a small date or two but these ultimately went nowhere…I've been working with this company for nearly a year now and as time goes on, everyone eventually knows each other at work one way or another. Of course, they learned about my luck about the opposite sex more and more whenever such topics came and this slowly devolved into making “friendly banter” about me. Always telling me to rush after a girl, find someone, have intercourse, etc. It's summer and whenever a woman with slightly revealing clothes moves along the workplace they point to her and tell me to look, run after her and get her, then call me useless when I don't. They brag about their past experiences, talking about everything they've done, how many women they slept with, etc. They question my sexuality and claim I'm homosexual and laugh when I tell them I'm straight.
For a healthy person none of this would matter. One can simply ignore this. But, the reality is that this is an incredibly specific issue for me. I don't plan on worrying anyone but my entire life, I've always been the outcast, there's been countless nights I've cried from loneliness, and to this day I contemplate suicide essentially everyday, every hour, wishing I never came to be. Their comments sting too much to bear and it only gets worse with each day…
I really like the job and the pay is great but the psychological torment is affecting me. Has anyone suffered similar issues? I'd really appreciate some feedback despite the pathetic nature of this post. Thanks.