Dear Internet People,
I am not totally against the idea of work, there are many things I do enjoy doing at my job, but there are far more things that I hate about it than I enjoy, one is feeling trapped. I have been running around doing the same type of job going on for over a decade now, I have worked with different companies in different cities and locations throughout the years, but no matter how different they try to be, at the end of the day they are all the same.
I am going back to school, an idea popping into my head thinking that if I get my master's, maybe tomorrow can be different; but as I talk to other people about my ambitions, my goals, and my desires, I met with stares, ones that I think I would get if I was inside a mental hospital.
I have tried talking to my boss about it, asking him for guidance on how to get to where I want to be, trying to get out from the four walls that have kept me bound to a job that I have started to hate; while I only see him for an hour every month, he has become very good of reminding me that I am not good enough to get out, that I have my place and I should except where I am.
I have my profiles set up on job board sites, I take their tests to show I am skilled, I apply to jobs showing my interest, and I reach out to people In these fields requesting mentorship, Ideas, guidance and help; but I am met with hallow thank you emails and silence.
Today feels like any other day, I wake up feeling like I am trapped within a maze, I check my emails and see they are empty, I send out new ones, check my texts and phone calls and see they are empty, and continue to apply to new opportunities; but at the end of the day, after I have spent the day working and running around trying to find a path that leads out, I just find my self a little more empty and tired; hoping tomorrow will change something.
Tomorrow will be day #1476 of looking for a brighter future, and my maze feels like it's getting bigger, stronger, and harder to solve.