i look at the future and it seems incredibly depressing and lonely. working, working, working just for some paper and indulging in hobbies occasionally and that's it is it? I live at home still and the thought of moving out in some shithole house or apartment alone makes me want to put a bullet in my head. The happiest i ever was in my entire life was living out of a backpack in south east Asia riding my scooter around and chilling with people in hostels, no where to be, no pressure or expectations literal just chilling. It felt so good and primal just hanging out with people in that way. I got back home and its been a downward spiral ever since and that was 2 years ago lol.