I got fired for the first time ever on Friday, and I can't stop beating myself up about it. The company was awful, management was filled with brownnosers, and the last straw was when they tried stealing over a hundred dollars of my tips to cover a teller's mistake.
But getting fired was unbelievable. As someone with the mental and social challenges of being on the spectrum, I'm used to employers taking advantage of me. This is a new level though, when they had me sign a damn harassement and misconduct file for my termination.
All I can think about was how shocking and terrifying it was to be locked in a room with two men of authority speaking in monotone voices that literally couldn't understand at times, and being forced to sign something like that. I feel so ashamed that I couldn't stand up for myself enough to quit instead of putting my signature down. Having compassion for myself is hard, but I guess I've learned a lot for next time.
At the very least, I made a lot of money there and learned some good skills. But damn, I'm so sick of replaying that “meeting” over and over in my head all day.
Does anyone have insight into how badly I got screwed? Should I (a Canadian) be panicking about having a harassement charge on my file? I really don't know how to feel about everything, and I'm just so sick of being manipulated due to my processing disorder.