I've been on my country's version of welfare, centrelink/jobseeker for almost 2 years.
My resume is filled with 8+ years of experience in retail with small amounts of managing to boot.
I never wanted to work.
Bad experiences with customers have ruined my drive for any role involving them and it also ruins my chances of getting a job in retail.
I've gone to psychologists for issues revolving around work and the actions of customers, I've tried to develop a healthy outlook of people but I feel as though it hasn't worked. I usually explain in interviews about the volatile nature of people or customers that I've served and explain how I deal with them but it's taken as a negative outlook in the workplace.
How else am I suppose to respond to abuse from customers? Happily?
Do I lie and say I love customers and people?
I don't, I be truthful and it hurts my chances.
In the past 3 jobs I've had this issue and every rejection I've had over the past 2 years has hurt not just my mental state but the willingness to look and stay in work.
I now have to go forward, learning from all my mistakes of being honest in interviews to grab a job I don't even want just to live.
I have another interview coming up and I've learnt to appease the interviewer, tell them my love for working in a sector that has caused me nothing but pain because the alternative is to tell the truth and just constantly fail.
My experience is purely retail so trying to branch off from here is a hard task, especially with education and retraining being so unaffordable under capitalism.
I'm sure more people feel like this, I'm not anxious or depressed enough to get more support from my welfare provider and honestly not stable enough to work full time so I'm very selective and unhelped.
The system is failing and my drive is lost.