I've pretty much been anti-work for as long as I can remember, but I didn't have the right terminology to describe the sentiments, plus through conditioning, I was made to feel abnormal for preferring leisure time over work that I didn't feel reaped any value. I remember being a kid and just not caring about something that either wasn't interesting to me personally or I didn't see how it would improve my life or the lives of those around me (of course, kids can't always determine that for themselves). I struggle with this even today- I work because I have to. I don't come from money. I didn't marry into money. My last job kinda fit my needs in the sense that it required little to no effort, but unsurprisingly, it paid absolute garbage. I had no choice but to find a new job since I was never gonna get a raise, and everything else keeps going up in cost. I got a position that I had been seeking since the start of grad school, but I feel overwhelmed, apathetic, and I just simply do not want to work. I have no choice, and Idk how to begin to feel motivated. I'm in training, and I feel overwhelmed with how much the job entails, and tbh, I doesn't pay that much better than the last job, but does at least have more prospects to move up. I'm having doubts if I'll even succeed at this job. I don't have a lot of skills or experience, either, so job-hunting is always a beast for me. I'm not seeking anyone to fix my problems, just really wanna vent to a group that won't immediately drag me for not being the most motivated go-getter on the planet.