I hate that saying. I’m a machinist and have been one for about 6 years now. I love what I do and I’m genuinely passionate about it. programming cnc machines, problem solving when things aren’t working right and just watching the machines run. BUT I absolutely cant stand working and hate my job. I get paid relatively well, I have a lot of “freedom” at work (listening to music/podcasts using my phone while the parts are running), but I’m still unhappy.
I wake up early and always feel like shit. I get home in time to make dinner and relax for 4 or so hours then it’s time to sleep. When Friday night comes around I’m usually exhausted from the week and don’t want to do anything or if I do go do something I’m irritable and just want to go home. Saturdays and Sundays I finally get to sleep in and do what I want but they always feel like they go by so fast. Sunday night I’m feeling good and boom I start dreading the fact that I have to work in the morning. It makes me anxious and uneasy for the rest of the night.
I have no sense of purpose anymore, I feel like a robot and only have fleeting moments of joy and freedom then the reality of having to work 5 days a week for the rest of my life kicks in. I feel trapped and at this point I see no sign things will change in my lifetime.