Hi all, I've come here to vent my frustrations at life because I feel like I've got very little left in me to keep going.
I applied for this software engineering role at this very large tech company. I thought Great, I'll get lots of stuff done, work on lots of different things and get a lot of experience. Nope, heaps of training on different tech it ends up being a devops/ solutions architect role. I don't have any experience working with dev ops or openshift or anything so I'm struggling a lot with this work. Just getting up everyday struggling with no one really to help. Dreading attending my standup call just to say there's been no progress with my story.
Meanwhile I've been doing intervierws for Full stack positions where my passion and interest really lies. I've been doing it for 3 months now and at the peak I had 8-10 interviews a week. I've spent DAYS building things for technical interviews but nothing. I juggle this between my work and also my business.
Most recently I spent 5 hours building a component for a technical challenege, where the next interview was supposed to be me talking about what I built and why I made certain decisions. Only for the interview to end up not being anything about what I've built and being a live coding session (Which I'm really not the best at I'm not good with the pressure) And ultimately a rejection without anyone even considering the time I spent on building what was supposed to be the technical.
I'm just so done out, I've invested so much energy into this job search I really don't know how much longer I can take it.
I'm ready to quit, It hurts me so much to be at this job and it hurts me even more pouring in all this energy into interviews that I end up not getting. I am TIRED