i dont really know where to post this cause im not familiar with a lot of the subs but i was wondering if anyone can relate
im in my late 30s. ill be 40 soon. my dream was to have a family.
i saw the world going to complete shit the past couple of years and have decided its better to not bring children into it.
i am struggling to find self worth because i always wanted to take care of kids. i have worked with kids but its hard working with others kids when you dont have them yourself and its almost torture. its better for my mental health not to work with children.
i have a few friends. i have lots of hobbies. i have a bf.
just struggling cause this most natural thing was not within my grasp because of financial reasons during my earlier reproductive years while others are being forced into it.
i have been fighting for womens rights for years more than most people i know and now i feel defeated. i wasnt planning on going into this on this post but might as well. i am too tired to stand up for womens rights. i know that sounds defeatist but i dont believe we will have equal rights in my life time and i believe even thinking about it will be bad for my mental health. i have the luxury where i live in a state where my reproductive rights arent being taken away and i feel guilt for that. i dont want to bring children into this world now. but its taken its toll on my mental health and i have to stop thinking about it.
you guys won. all i have is myself. gonna make this the best life i can.
i honestly feel bad for typing this because so many people in this world have it worse than me. but i spent a lot of thought writing it so i might as well post it.
please dont tell me about how i can have a baby until im 45 or i can adopt. i dont want to bring a child into this world any longer and now i am having a hard time finding self worth bc thats what i always wanted. so there is a void. thank you.