It shouldn't be like this. Not everything should be done with the endgame of making money from it in one way or another.
I have just completely lost the desire to even plan to do any hobbies. Yeah, long term distant future I'll do it when I am hopefully richer but at the current moment, thinking of doing any hobbies that aren't work or school related, just makes me feel extremely unproductive, guilty and dangerous for my financial health and future, it feels like I could be doing something productive instead to make money.
Very sad situation.