Really tired. Psychologically that is. Just don't understand who the fuck I (25M) am and why my head hurts and why i have a tone of overdue task to do – not only outside of work, but also in here.
Is this dramatic enough? I don't know and I don't care. What I do know is that I m feeling like complete shit at the moment and that's it.
I guess enough bitching around and start to set up boundaries with people around. If they come and speak and I don't answer, tell them to almost piss off in the most indirect way possible. I refuse to tell them that directly. Fuck that.
Another point is the fucking people around. They keep talking bullshit and I can't even express myself, while others have great chemistry. This fucking workplace is toxic for me and I feel it. I don't like it. I will be searching for something new and will do the task that are assigned to me, rather than help these fucked people.
On the other side, it is okay since the days that pass by here sometimes are chill heartwarming and so on. So is it. One thing I know is that I'm dick and tired. I am just fucking sick and tired of all of this shit. My body feels like shit. And nobody cares, just produce produce produce. Fuck you! I'm so fucking done with this place i don't know what to add or where to get help.
Bottom line, I cannot decide is it me or is it the environment I'm in, that I'm sooooo fucked up right now. I'll go sleep, since I can't take it anymore. Done.