It's a messy situation, I'm in mid 20s or so without much work experience with mild depression/derealization/ocd/ADHD, I finished my computing degree and now I'm expected to go to work, that requires being stationary in my city for a year for a week off to see my lover who k lives overseas, I'm looking for remote work to at least be independent.
On top of all that I hate programming and my university keeps sending me unrelated Jobs that will bind me in my city, unable to go overseas to visit them.
Generally a messy situation and the motivation to work is on a very bare minimum, especially considering I will probably be expected to be a programmer without liking it at all necessarily.
I consider that I'm at the same time wasting my time either way.